Nostalgia

Every time I try to sum up the words I want to say, a cloud of oblivion always blocks my train of words. So I’ll make my post short.

It’s time for nostalgia.


Here is one word which many people don’t grammatically use that much, yet frequently take much time for. Here is one word people tend to take for granted when happiness is present, and badly want when adverse situations transpire. And I am one of the people who best describe my second intuition. Yes, I often use the word during the olden days of term and research papers; when formal themes are the rave in our English Class; when students ask the book dweebs to make one for them, in exchange of various favors. But then, I usually do nostalgia when adverse situations happen.


Truth be told, nostalgia doesn’t entirely entail the longing for lost love and funny memories associated with Eros. The wistfulness can also include thinking of the childhood days, when all you do is run to your Momma and cry when you’re gashed. It also entails the longing to go back to a time when Utopia seems like meters away from your reach, whatever events they are.


And one more thing: One can do nostalgia every time, and not just during the grim weather and stormy downpours. And that is why I write this post: To do nostalgia myself.

Have you ever wished of going back to the time when:

- the only joy for you was when Daddy brought you to McDonald’s and treated you a sundae ice cream?
- tripping and gashing your knee meant all the pain in the world for you?
- you first felt your heart breaking as your 8-year old best friend left and moved to another place?
- happiness was defined by your stuffed toy who used to understand your childish anguish in life?

I have. Yes. Back to the days when my father treated me to a fast-food diner; when mother was my nurse, doctor, and counselor rolled into one. When I experience petty (and sometimes big) fights with my woman, I usually sit back, shed a tear or two (yes, I am a cry-baby), then reminisce. It doesn’t necessarily mean I badly want to experience those nostalgic things again; I simply want to get a feel of what used to be my life before, how it was like, and how I can get some of those feel-good aura into my situation right now.


Sigh.


I wish I can always have the strength to be strong and not give way to mawkish moments. Then I wouldn’t have to rely on the priceless memories of my youth…


*sigh* I feel bad right now. A little nostalgia again; I hope this will help.